ThE ApPlE-OrgAniZeD LiAr LoVe StOrY

"You are the apple of my eye"

This story indeed very romantic and comedy that will always made you stay awake for the whole movie till end. Those who coupling will find this movie melting their heart with the romantic act. I'm personally recommending to people to go for this movie. However, the major issue here actually is not about how good the story line, the actors/actress but the end of the story. When the guy knows that the women that he been chasing for ages inviting him to her marriage he accept it and in the end he leave it. I will never be that guy, because I never believe that there's other guy that could love you as much as I did.

NHT, its not that if you get marry I will ruin your wedding. I will never do that and I'm always played it fair and square. Now I still have 7 years to be with you, within this period I will do my very best to be your man. I'm not kind of guy that will let his girl go with somebody else when he's thinking that the girl might be happy with the other guy. I know its very stubborn statement but I have my own thought and the thought is

"JUST GO WITH THE DREAM, IT WILL NEVER STOP UNLESS YOU SAID SO"

To you, NHT

Its been so hard when we apart,
But that the choice we had made,
Though there's chance to be with,
There's no way you will walk with me...

Whether to miss you or not,
Its beyond my control,
To stop thinking about,
I tried it before,
Just remember this...
My every single seconds its all about you...

Every story has their end,
Good or Bad,
Favorable or unfavorable,
Happy or sad,
Its all up to the writer itself,

But for our story,
We still writing it,
Figuring it,
To make it fun,
To appreciate the times,

So, NHT please dont stop writing our love story..not now

~idoloveu~

WoRds fRoM yoU-ShArp LikE A RaMbOo KniFe

Last week broke the promise I made not to contact her due to reason that based on my moral reasoning its allowable to do so, since it will affect me in long term somehow. I have throw all my ego, arrogant and stubbornness to contact her asking her to come join me and all our friend taking picture after convocation. She bravely and directly rejected my offer. I cant force her either but I do notice she did changed in a way good for her to have strong stand on her decision making but that obviously oppose me well.

We been texting and I call her up till the extend she ignoring my call which is very frustrate to me. So she not joining me for the photo session and as a result I dun have any photo with her. However during the call she did said "I give you chance to take pictures with me but you dun want to". This is the time when I rejected her offer to take picture when we took the convo cloth. I guess she's paying back what I did to her and it serve me well. For the very first time I felt regret for what had happen.

The last text message from her
"Please dun msg me again. Thnx! I wil only reply you,
When you thnk i'm your normal friend. Pls! bye bye"

Guess what I reply her?. I really can’t control my emotion that time straight away I reply her.
"I won’t take you as my friend never and ever will"

Silly me but this is my stand "if we could not be together, better not even a friend just pretend we never met!"

The words seem to be very hash on her but deep inside my heart I will always love her that's no one can denied. I just love her with no reason.

I'm sorry, because I love you...

Regard,
-idoloveu-

 

The DaY I'm reGreT MoSt-CoNvo

Convocation to most of people usually will be one of their happiest day in their life. Yes it would but to me I'm regret on that day. Attending convocation to me just to fulfill my promise to mom in fact I have zero attention going there as I know, I will meet her there and it's true I met NHT there. I dun even looking at her nor talk to her. I'm just too arrogant and ego with my self.

Right after the convocation ceremony I wont take long to straight away went back home. Mom did ask me whether want to take photo with friends...I don't want to because seeing her it just make thing worst. I thought it will be okay this way. However after reach home I felt that, I really wanted to meet her for the last time, taking picture together but it all past now. This is where for the first time in my life I'm feeling regret, regret over something that cant be fixed.

This is the part I'm throwing all my ego, promises and self esteem to call her and ask her out this Saturday (22/10/11) to take picture with me and our entire classmate. She's got something on Saturday and Sunday she having her ACCA test. I did argue and begging her, she said "I give you chance but you not there". The sweet talk wont be useful anymore at this rate till to the extend she turn off her phone. Last message she send:

"Now I know how you treat something important to me, I'm not free on Saturday. sorry."

I'm really sorry I did not mean to forcing you but you too never considering anything from me. I'm not asking for the whole day just 1 hour of your Saturday.

We wont meet again after this....I'll be missing you like hell...NHT, I'll keep the promise and waiting for you.

My love only meant for you, take care and live up our dream!

LoNg EnoUGh

Dear Heart,

Today is 1st of Sept'11 3 more days to go and it will be 4 month. To some people it just like clicking eyes but as for me indeed it just a short period but without you its pain like hell, lovely like I'm in Arctic, as a music with no rhyme. To make it simple I just cant live without you, heart.

During Raya celebration some of my aunt did asked me since I have finish my degree when I want to look for GF. Suddenly it struck me I just thinking about you and the promise I made. Just dont have feeling for other woman other than you. I dont know whether you feel the same as me but I really hope so.

One more thing I'm planning to fly overseas if everything according to plan early next year I'll be leaving. With this I might stay around 5 to 7 years overseas. By that time I wont know how much you have change but I just hope that your heart still the same.

All the path I'm planning and taking its all for you to make sure the future awaits is just AWESOME for me and you, NHT

~idoloveu~

I'LL bE tHe SiLenCeR

There's a time when we really need to stop talking and turn to listening, its really common. But to be silencer for the coming few years is really hard to do so. These are the reason WHY it hurt me soo much!

1. I can no longer express my feeling toward you
2. No more communication between you and me
3. You know how much I really like talking with you
4. If possible I want to wish you every single morning and night
5. It makes me miss you like hell

Though it affect me and most of the advantages not on my side but in some way it do teach me to be more patient, work harder, and challenge my guts. You never know how far you can go if you never tried to challenge yourself. People dare to talk tough but when walk the talk they fall half way!

Its been 3 month since that day no news neither from you nor me. We totally cut all the connection and you really strong to do so...but not me...

~idoloveu~

*Read the bold word

I Love You

WhiLe GreEcE iN deFault

There's a time when even a country cant stand still anymore...what Greece been trough now is not one country falling down but the starting point of domino effect for the European. However as for me going concern of Greece is not my priority concern. My concern all I put into you and all about you, winning your heart is the highest achievement for me. As for Greece lack of fund can be solve by renew borrowing term or made another new borrowing or new economic policy. However, my case I dont need money to win you, I need you to trust in me and have faith which I could not borrow from anyone else.

Greece facing the possibility of bankruptcy which seen as very serious matters because it obviouly will shut down the whole country. For me and you when you rejected me its not only that my ego or self-esteem is affected but it totally blank my future....because my life is all about you

I'm not a superhuman nor a genius who can turn Greece to back in track, its not an overnight work that people can do. Same goes to my love to you, NHT I could not change your heart straight away...but I believe persistence and consistence will surely paid off someday..and on that day you and me will be together.

"To Greece: Failure is not a fullstops but its a new story for a new sentences"

Regard,
~idoloveu~

04/05/2011-My LaSt dAy

Dear Heart,

I know, I lost the deal...I could not win your heart before that day. I tried everything, I do what ordinary could not do, and I dare to move forward though I know the end road might not as what I had in my dream and everything because of you. I know you never ask for all this but give me chance to show how important you for me. I'm very stubborn to accept this because I will never forget about you and I'm afraid I will not fall in love again...

I kept the promise but every single second that passed it hurt me a lot...even me dont know how long I can coop with this. I'm like others normal human being I do have feeling, I do get hurt and I do love you. I just cant stop loving you. It's very difficult for you to accept me I understand how you feel if you has to choose either me or your family. But please teach me how can I forget about you, how can I stop loving you..please

You always ware saying this principle of yours "once my friend, forever my friend". You know what I really hate this because I could never accept this. For me I prefer not to be your friend or not even meeting you if the end ware to be this way...its really hurting me. I will be always love you...I keep the promise we had and I hope you kept yours. Till the time we meet again I hope your heart will change and let me be your man.


~iloveuHT~