LoNg EnoUGh

Dear Heart,

Today is 1st of Sept'11 3 more days to go and it will be 4 month. To some people it just like clicking eyes but as for me indeed it just a short period but without you its pain like hell, lovely like I'm in Arctic, as a music with no rhyme. To make it simple I just cant live without you, heart.

During Raya celebration some of my aunt did asked me since I have finish my degree when I want to look for GF. Suddenly it struck me I just thinking about you and the promise I made. Just dont have feeling for other woman other than you. I dont know whether you feel the same as me but I really hope so.

One more thing I'm planning to fly overseas if everything according to plan early next year I'll be leaving. With this I might stay around 5 to 7 years overseas. By that time I wont know how much you have change but I just hope that your heart still the same.

All the path I'm planning and taking its all for you to make sure the future awaits is just AWESOME for me and you, NHT

~idoloveu~

I'LL bE tHe SiLenCeR

There's a time when we really need to stop talking and turn to listening, its really common. But to be silencer for the coming few years is really hard to do so. These are the reason WHY it hurt me soo much!

1. I can no longer express my feeling toward you
2. No more communication between you and me
3. You know how much I really like talking with you
4. If possible I want to wish you every single morning and night
5. It makes me miss you like hell

Though it affect me and most of the advantages not on my side but in some way it do teach me to be more patient, work harder, and challenge my guts. You never know how far you can go if you never tried to challenge yourself. People dare to talk tough but when walk the talk they fall half way!

Its been 3 month since that day no news neither from you nor me. We totally cut all the connection and you really strong to do so...but not me...

~idoloveu~

*Read the bold word

I Love You

WhiLe GreEcE iN deFault

There's a time when even a country cant stand still anymore...what Greece been trough now is not one country falling down but the starting point of domino effect for the European. However as for me going concern of Greece is not my priority concern. My concern all I put into you and all about you, winning your heart is the highest achievement for me. As for Greece lack of fund can be solve by renew borrowing term or made another new borrowing or new economic policy. However, my case I dont need money to win you, I need you to trust in me and have faith which I could not borrow from anyone else.

Greece facing the possibility of bankruptcy which seen as very serious matters because it obviouly will shut down the whole country. For me and you when you rejected me its not only that my ego or self-esteem is affected but it totally blank my future....because my life is all about you

I'm not a superhuman nor a genius who can turn Greece to back in track, its not an overnight work that people can do. Same goes to my love to you, NHT I could not change your heart straight away...but I believe persistence and consistence will surely paid off someday..and on that day you and me will be together.

"To Greece: Failure is not a fullstops but its a new story for a new sentences"

Regard,
~idoloveu~

04/05/2011-My LaSt dAy

Dear Heart,

I know, I lost the deal...I could not win your heart before that day. I tried everything, I do what ordinary could not do, and I dare to move forward though I know the end road might not as what I had in my dream and everything because of you. I know you never ask for all this but give me chance to show how important you for me. I'm very stubborn to accept this because I will never forget about you and I'm afraid I will not fall in love again...

I kept the promise but every single second that passed it hurt me a lot...even me dont know how long I can coop with this. I'm like others normal human being I do have feeling, I do get hurt and I do love you. I just cant stop loving you. It's very difficult for you to accept me I understand how you feel if you has to choose either me or your family. But please teach me how can I forget about you, how can I stop loving you..please

You always ware saying this principle of yours "once my friend, forever my friend". You know what I really hate this because I could never accept this. For me I prefer not to be your friend or not even meeting you if the end ware to be this way...its really hurting me. I will be always love you...I keep the promise we had and I hope you kept yours. Till the time we meet again I hope your heart will change and let me be your man.


~iloveuHT~

mY LoVe

If i have to choose either the sun or u,
I will choose u,
Because no point if my eyes could see things,
But inside my heart is blind,

There's no reason to travel around the world looking for happiness,
If my heart is already attach to u,
No point meeting beautiful girl,
If my heart wanting to love u only

To have sad memory,
Is what i'm afraid most,
To lose u,
God please take me away..no point live when she's not around anymore

There's no reasons for me not to love u,
Coz in every way u is everything to me,

My love never end though the time is envying us

Regard,
~to my HT~

Mr.GooDNiGhT & MorNiNG

I dont know how should I...confess..its very hard for each of us I guess..
However, the longer I hold it..the worse it be..
Neither of us want it to end as being enemy...
Its hard for me and for you...
But lets put an end here...I dont know when i'm going to meet you..again
Maybe we wont see each other after this...

I know its been countless of times you been saying i'm sorry..
And for me I never stop chasing you..
I never know where to stop..
Its just not me..you know me well..

I'll be very frank here..
I'll follow your rule..even it cost pain..
Because what you believe for someone to love..
Is what i'm practicing now..
Each day I'll do as you said..
Never think of giving up...i'm not born to be a loser...

Its like i'm the one really begging for it..
Where you never bother to tolerate..
I'm willing to know you more..
Why dont we give each other chance??..
can you??

I know deep inside your heart..there's me
And you in my heart there's always you...
Do not care about what people gonna say..
Cause they never know how we feel..toward each other

Be with me..we face it together!!!..
Even it's gonna be hard for each of us..
But dont be afraid..
As long as we together...
It will be fine for us..

For the thousand times i'm gonna ask you..
Would you be my girl?

Regard,
Mr.Goodnight & Morning

MoRniNG-NigHT-AlwAyS fOr YoU

I'm not the kind of guy who is romantic, sweet with word and always know what woman one. I'll be straight forward if I see you beautiful, I will give compliment  and same goes when I see thing not right. I always want to wish you morning and night. Because I believe this is the only way for me to make sure that I'm waiting for you.

It not just about wishes I've been sending to you but it also about how I remembering you for each second that passed. I'm totally in LOVE to you, things that happen before made me realize that I has fallen in love with you. Since, the time I did not contact you, hate to reply your massage I realize that actually I miss you...

When I ask you do you have a any feeling toward me you say no...then I ask why?...you seem cannot answer?...you and I know how we feel toward each other. If it's about family I willing to be by your side to go through what comes next. I ask you would you give me chance?...what you could say is just "I'm sorry". It not that we do anything wrong!..

I ask you why dont we give each other chance to know better..to be truth about our feeling
you said:
i very lazy,
dunno many things,
dunno how to cook,
take ur patung but no return for u!
every bad thing oso i have!

frankly speaking no one is perfect!!!..that why we need each other to complement our strength and weakness..

I hope by the time you read this you know how much I LOVE U, HT

~idoloveu~