Last week broke the promise I made not to contact her due to reason that based on my moral reasoning its allowable to do so, since it will affect me in long term somehow. I have throw all my ego, arrogant and stubbornness to contact her asking her to come join me and all our friend taking picture after convocation. She bravely and directly rejected my offer. I cant force her either but I do notice she did changed in a way good for her to have strong stand on her decision making but that obviously oppose me well.
We been texting and I call her up till the extend she ignoring my call which is very frustrate to me. So she not joining me for the photo session and as a result I dun have any photo with her. However during the call she did said "I give you chance to take pictures with me but you dun want to". This is the time when I rejected her offer to take picture when we took the convo cloth. I guess she's paying back what I did to her and it serve me well. For the very first time I felt regret for what had happen.
The last text message from her
"Please dun msg me again. Thnx! I wil only reply you,
When you thnk i'm your normal friend. Pls! bye bye"
Guess what I reply her?. I really can’t control my emotion that time straight away I reply her.
"I won’t take you as my friend never and ever will"
Silly me but this is my stand "if we could not be together, better not even a friend just pretend we never met!"
The words seem to be very hash on her but deep inside my heart I will always love her that's no one can denied. I just love her with no reason.
I'm sorry, because I love you...
Regard,
-idoloveu-
